right before i find you
my feet tingle, they feel frozen, & my heart is blocking my breath
worried that i might explode
i’m too terrified to breathe
it’s been a while since i’ve written, i know,
my fingers stumble on these keys & i mess up my words
& i’m,
i’m not sure what to say —
i don’t know who i am anymore
& this is even me?
is this still you.
sometimes i get glimpses
reflections in puddles for split seconds
& this feels like insanity
but back to you —
you are a window away & i’m stalling, buying time
trying to convince myself i’ve waited long enough,
but what is waiting?
i’m wondering.
perhaps four years is enough.
& now it’s time to say hello.
so hi,
my friend,
it’s been a while
but it feels like yesterday.
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