and the band played on

my fingers feel heavy from wearing my rings
married to my mistakes
sign here
my name danced on the dotted line
scribbles in spilt blue ink

torn through where i blotted it; it pooled
thought i wrote on paper
instead of my skin

invisible lines curve upwards over time
like scars that hardly heal they’re
littering my arms

i purposely spelt my name wrong
thinking i’d be fine

just another misjudgement just another mistake
if only there were an award instead of an upset
i’d surely win
& this would be
gold glinting in my eye
instead of silver saline

i went to write you a letter today

but my fingers weigh a thousand pounds.